Intellectually, I know how to deal with really real world situations involving food.
I know that I am now a healthy weight & have the knowledge to get through most food situations of which I have no control. I’m not tempted to order shit food at a restaurant & I can easily control myself at work morning/afternoon teas…
That is my intellectual brain… This is my actual response:
Fuck. The planning morning is now a planning day at a bogan pub with lunch, morning tea & afternoon tea included. I know who has organised it… I know fruit or veggies will not be apart of morning & afternoon tea. Everything on the menu comes with chips & all the salads have crumbed, fried or cured meats/fish and drowned in super low-budget fatty dressing of one sort or another. (I know this as fact because I’ve already looked at their menu online). I’m going to have to order & make alterations to the meal, in front of people & the judgement will be freaking unbearable – I JUST WANT THE PUMPKIN QUINOA SALAD I HAD PLANNED. 😦
That is what going on in my head right now.
I can’t relax… and it’s peoples reactions that are causing this emotional response… but my history with food, weight, inappropriate downright bitchy comments & my work colleagues is not a pleasant one.
Where to from here?
Bee's 12wbt journey 
Making alterations to the meal is a smart thing.
Can’t avoid the judgmental people (or rather: can’t control it) on this one. So, as always, comes down to the fact that there’s a scenario not fully in your control. Best you can do is make the right choices on the things you *can* control (alterations to meal) and feel good about that. It won’t cancel out the other stuff but if you know you’ve done the right thing, then you can put that at the front of your mind and move everything else to the back.
And then eventually find somewhere to work where such people aren’t as judgmental and full of their own issues! And then you’ll be onto the next challenge that can’t be predicted… and that’s life!